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05 November 2009 @ 09:35 pm
As quoted by Plato.
( is to conquer yourself; to be conquered by yourself is of all things most shameful and vile )
( is to conquer yourself; to be conquered by yourself is of all things most shameful and vile )
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contemplative29 October 2009 @ 04:41 pm
In the movie Little Miss Sunshine is one of my most favorite quotes of all time because I think it applies to everyone of all circles of life.
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blah08 October 2009 @ 12:05 am
... enjoy water; those authoritative in their conduct enjoy mountains. The wise are active; authoritative are still. The wise find enjoyment; the authoritative are long-enduring" - Confucius
Ok, so today I'm taking my quote from an old Chinese guy who died years upon years ago, but he was the coolest dude ever. I think the whole idea of Confucianism is probably the most awesome thing I've seen. Its not as stressful as Chritianity or anything like that. Its more of a chilled out religion I guess you could say. Well, belief system really. But on to my interpretation of the week.
The wise in this quote are those who have intellect. The ones who believe, the ones who challenge their minds, and the ones who are intelligent. They embrace their love for knowledge and learning, and flow like the water. They're active and enjoyable. The wise understand what it means to experience life for the moments that it offers, and they embrace those moments and allow their knowledge to fully encorporate them into a world such as this. Those who are authoritative work brick-by-brick and never cease to enjoy the stillness of society. They do not appreciate the flowing, enjoyable and active side of nature. They are stoic like the mountains and always maintain the same composure no matter what society, or nature, might bring them. They endure for long periods of time, but it is always at a constant level. Those who are authoritative are non-changing and resiliant, which is why Confucius uses mountains to symbolize them. They may change slightly over long periods of time, but never enough to constitute them as being part of water, or the flowing center of nature. They are immovable.
Honestly, in relating this quote to myself, I find that I follow more of the wise pattern of life. I love water, and I enjoy life primarily when it flows into random directions and then slowly circles back to find its starting point again. But, nothing is ever the same. I enjoy activity, and obviously I enjoy enjoyment. If I were comparing myself to a mythological creature I would call myself a nymph most likely. They are free and live only for the enjoyment of life. However, I do believe that each individual has bits and pieces of each side in them. I believe this because everything is about balance, and if one person had all flowing enjoyment then they would be irresponsible and chaotic, and that disrupts the delicate balance that everybody maintains. So, I do have my serious, authoritative tendencies where I tend to be resiliant to change and incredibly immovable. That comes from being stubborn really. But, without my stubborness I'd never be able to do things and accomplish them in a timely manner. Or, if every time someone wanted me to drink at a party I would easily accept the drink because I was too easily pushed over and away from my resolute "No, I don't drink and I don't plan to." Balance. Yin-Yang and all that she-bang is the best way to live life. But everyone will tell you that so its nothing new. However, I do believe that Confucius hit the head on the nail when he was speaking on how the wise know how to experience life and the authoritative are unmoving and unchangeable. I mean, the wise are supposed to be the smart ones, aren't they?
Current Location: LMC dorm room 300!
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pensiveCurrent Music: Tremble for My Beloved - Iron & Wine
01 October 2009 @ 01:23 am
admires and loves you, and I will tell you who you are" - Antoine de Saint-Exupery
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01 September 2009 @ 05:39 pm
Alright so, I've officially moved in and have had two days of classes. Its been alright. I like college, I really do, but at the same time I get bits of homesickness whenever I talk to my mom or brother. I've been tearing up more recently, and it might be due to just stress or frustration. I do have some more homework to get done, but it isn't just that. I feel so jumbled and out of sync that its freaking me out. I'm like wait, what I have this due when where - huhh? And there's just so MUCH of everything to do it seems. I don't know, maybe its just me. But honestly, I really need a schedule and a routine to be able to function. Right now I'm just all over the place and its scaring me. There are a few times when I've been holding back tears either from homesickness or just plain stress/frustration. I haven't found a "niche" yet either. I mean I didn't expect it the first week or whatever, and honestly I've been just sorta chilling and hanging out with a bunch of people. Everybody's nice and all that but I'm missing the really close bonds I had with my friends. I'm really hoping that eventually I'll be close to some people. I'll join a club and do stuff. That, I think, is going to help out a lot. I just wish I could have that bond and stuff with somebody here. I feel kind of isolated and lonely and it depresses me.
What I am:
- frazzled
-stressed
-frustrated
-lonely
-homesick
What I will be:
-brave
-diligent
-persevering
-friendly
-outgoing
I really hope this semester goes alright. I did real well the first two nights but that was kind of because it was just like a vacation or something. Its not really settling in that this is real life. I don't know, maybe its just me but its taking some time to get used to and everything. Then again, I can't be all down about everything my first four days of college. Like seriously. I can't get envious of the people who have easy access to home because its NOT a good idea to go home. My family will be up in a month, but at the same time I do miss home a lot. I don't know. I'm just praying that everything will all be alright eventually. Preferably sooner rather than later. I hope anyways. I'm being optimistic though :)
What I am:
- frazzled
-stressed
-frustrated
-lonely
-homesick
What I will be:
-brave
-diligent
-persevering
-friendly
-outgoing
I really hope this semester goes alright. I did real well the first two nights but that was kind of because it was just like a vacation or something. Its not really settling in that this is real life. I don't know, maybe its just me but its taking some time to get used to and everything. Then again, I can't be all down about everything my first four days of college. Like seriously. I can't get envious of the people who have easy access to home because its NOT a good idea to go home. My family will be up in a month, but at the same time I do miss home a lot. I don't know. I'm just praying that everything will all be alright eventually. Preferably sooner rather than later. I hope anyways. I'm being optimistic though :)
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worried21 August 2009 @ 11:27 am
I was born :) Today's my birthday and I realized that at eighteen years old I can do a variety of things, and yet there are only two things that I really want to do: vote and clubbing. Other than that, I don't smoke, I don't watch porn, and I don't particularly want to sign up for the service. But, looking at it I'm a recognized adult in the US. That's so weird if you really think about it. After seventeen years of being deemed a child, a minor, a teenager, when you turn eighteen all of that officially changes. You're legal.
There are plenty of changes that an eighteen year old experiences. For example, college. Its the first time any eighteen year old lives on their own, away from their parents. They have to fend for themselves in almost anything - ie: laundry, choosing classes, going to class, feeding themselves, etc - its almost too surreal to think about now. My college move-in date is approaching soon and I hardly feel ready for it. Its more of a I can't believe that this is really it sort of feeling. Its unbelievably mind-blowing. And then, give me four more years and I'll be a grad student really living on my own. Twenty-two years old and thriving. It'll be an interesting turn of events. Just like today. I feel like today's supposed to be some poignant day that sticks out in my memory, but it just does feel like another day.
But still ... I'm legal. :)
Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me; happy birthday dear meee happy birthday to me. xo
There are plenty of changes that an eighteen year old experiences. For example, college. Its the first time any eighteen year old lives on their own, away from their parents. They have to fend for themselves in almost anything - ie: laundry, choosing classes, going to class, feeding themselves, etc - its almost too surreal to think about now. My college move-in date is approaching soon and I hardly feel ready for it. Its more of a I can't believe that this is really it sort of feeling. Its unbelievably mind-blowing. And then, give me four more years and I'll be a grad student really living on my own. Twenty-two years old and thriving. It'll be an interesting turn of events. Just like today. I feel like today's supposed to be some poignant day that sticks out in my memory, but it just does feel like another day.
But still ... I'm legal. :)
Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me; happy birthday dear meee happy birthday to me. xo
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jubilantCurrent Music: Happy Birthday Song
10 August 2009 @ 05:38 pm
Accomplishments come in little doses. I've learned so much just by realizing this. If you set too many unreachable goals for yourself you'll always feel underaccomplished and worthless.
Well, the first thing I can think of is set "mini-goals". Doesn't that make sense? Like, my "mini-goal" today - I set up a to do list basically - was to run with my brother, take care of laundry and dishes, clean up some of my room, clean out my old camera, upload new software onto my new laptop and something else. Well, its almost six o'clock and I've done five out of those seven things. I'm a list person I realized. I need to make to do lists to get things done. There's just so much satisfaction in crossing off a job once you've done it. I'm very prioritized and straightforward thinking. I know what must get done and how it should get done. Business before pleasure, always. Or, well, school/work before fun time. For the most part. Sometimes work just doesn't count (like when I was working 4 hours a week ... um, yeah).
What else can I talk about? Oh yeah! Did you know that just getting ready for college is time-consuming, wallet-draining and a little stressful? Good God, I never expected to have HALF of my living room filled to the brim with college stuff. Its like moving. Well, technically it is moving though if you think about it. I'm going to be living at college for the next four years, so its got to feel like home. I still have books to get, and I've gotta get my laptop ready but I think I'm pretty much alright.
And so, I totally started another story that's actually pretty cool. Honestly, I've got like like two or three new ones I think, plus various fanfictions. I wonder if the reason behind me not finishing a story is because I have too many going on at once? Its just, when I hit a temporary lull in the action I tend to write elsewhere or come up with a new idea. Its just what I do I suppose. Ah, well ok. Being listless is one of the worst feelings ever. I hate it. You're all like blahh and blechhh and its gay. Haha.
So this has been a totally randomly weird post by yours truly. HAH. Pointless, right?
Well, the first thing I can think of is set "mini-goals". Doesn't that make sense? Like, my "mini-goal" today - I set up a to do list basically - was to run with my brother, take care of laundry and dishes, clean up some of my room, clean out my old camera, upload new software onto my new laptop and something else. Well, its almost six o'clock and I've done five out of those seven things. I'm a list person I realized. I need to make to do lists to get things done. There's just so much satisfaction in crossing off a job once you've done it. I'm very prioritized and straightforward thinking. I know what must get done and how it should get done. Business before pleasure, always. Or, well, school/work before fun time. For the most part. Sometimes work just doesn't count (like when I was working 4 hours a week ... um, yeah).
What else can I talk about? Oh yeah! Did you know that just getting ready for college is time-consuming, wallet-draining and a little stressful? Good God, I never expected to have HALF of my living room filled to the brim with college stuff. Its like moving. Well, technically it is moving though if you think about it. I'm going to be living at college for the next four years, so its got to feel like home. I still have books to get, and I've gotta get my laptop ready but I think I'm pretty much alright.
And so, I totally started another story that's actually pretty cool. Honestly, I've got like like two or three new ones I think, plus various fanfictions. I wonder if the reason behind me not finishing a story is because I have too many going on at once? Its just, when I hit a temporary lull in the action I tend to write elsewhere or come up with a new idea. Its just what I do I suppose. Ah, well ok. Being listless is one of the worst feelings ever. I hate it. You're all like blahh and blechhh and its gay. Haha.
So this has been a totally randomly weird post by yours truly. HAH. Pointless, right?
05 August 2009 @ 11:18 am
So, I've just done some college shopping ( And the rest is behind the cut )
Current Location: Space!
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hungry29 July 2009 @ 01:30 pm
I was just having thoughts about what I want to get out of my college education, out of working out, out of LIFE in general I suppose. What can I gleen from the resources provided for me? Well, I suppose it would be a little bit like this:
1. I want to achieve the career of my dreams, whatever that may be. Basically, college is supposed to prepare me for my future so I want to have the best education to be able to work my dream job. I don't know if that's forensics, anthropology or whatever else. Where ever the future takes me will determine what my career will be. But the only way I can think of achieving the career of my dreams is to go to a fantastic college and be really prepared for the future. Hopefully LMC will be able to get me started.
2. I want to be fit and healthy. Yeah, I didn't use "skinny" or "have an amazing body" because hoenstly I just want to be healthy. I don't want to succumb to health problems later in my life and die early because of them. Think about it. If I change my living habits now I'll be able to change them for the future.
3. I want to succeed in what I choose. The power of choice is amazing, and as a free American citizen I have that incredible power. I'm not forced to follow the path of my forefathers and mothers. I don't have to be a hosuewife, I don't have to be a business manager. I am free to choose whatever path I wish to travel. If I want to write a book, I can write a book. If I want to be a photographer and travel the world, I can (within money limits of course haha). I'm not moulded. I am very able to make my own choices.
4. I want to be happy. Doesn't everyone? I don't really think this needs an explanation.
5. I want a wonderful life with a great husband and some pets. Yes, no kids. I'm not a huge kids person. I love 'em, but I wouldn't love them at the end of the day. But isn't this also everybody's dream? I'm very typical, you can see.
Using the resources life has provided me, I really think I can achieve my desires. That's all I've ever really wanted to do. I don't need a lot of money. I just want to be happy with those who make me happy. I also want to feel the sense of accomplishment. When I'm 100 and on my deathbed, I want to be able to say I don't regret anything.
1. I want to achieve the career of my dreams, whatever that may be. Basically, college is supposed to prepare me for my future so I want to have the best education to be able to work my dream job. I don't know if that's forensics, anthropology or whatever else. Where ever the future takes me will determine what my career will be. But the only way I can think of achieving the career of my dreams is to go to a fantastic college and be really prepared for the future. Hopefully LMC will be able to get me started.
2. I want to be fit and healthy. Yeah, I didn't use "skinny" or "have an amazing body" because hoenstly I just want to be healthy. I don't want to succumb to health problems later in my life and die early because of them. Think about it. If I change my living habits now I'll be able to change them for the future.
3. I want to succeed in what I choose. The power of choice is amazing, and as a free American citizen I have that incredible power. I'm not forced to follow the path of my forefathers and mothers. I don't have to be a hosuewife, I don't have to be a business manager. I am free to choose whatever path I wish to travel. If I want to write a book, I can write a book. If I want to be a photographer and travel the world, I can (within money limits of course haha). I'm not moulded. I am very able to make my own choices.
4. I want to be happy. Doesn't everyone? I don't really think this needs an explanation.
5. I want a wonderful life with a great husband and some pets. Yes, no kids. I'm not a huge kids person. I love 'em, but I wouldn't love them at the end of the day. But isn't this also everybody's dream? I'm very typical, you can see.
Using the resources life has provided me, I really think I can achieve my desires. That's all I've ever really wanted to do. I don't need a lot of money. I just want to be happy with those who make me happy. I also want to feel the sense of accomplishment. When I'm 100 and on my deathbed, I want to be able to say I don't regret anything.
Current Mood: contemplative
contemplativeCurrent Music: I Hate Everything About You - Three Days Grace
21 July 2009 @ 09:29 pm
Just a few new-ish icons. (Emma Watson/Harry Potter/Gossip Girl/New Moon/Mortal Instruments)
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bored13 July 2009 @ 01:57 pm
Grad party? Check. Money for college? Check. Plans with friends for the Last Summer? Quadruple check. Roommates and room assignments for LMC? Check and check. So basically, my summer consists of working, plans to camp, paintball, see midnight showings of movies, go to drive-ins, host a tea party, host a dinner party and who knows what else. I love it. I absolutely love it.
I've gotten in touch with all my roommates (I have 3 of them) and I've figured out where I'm living next year. Luckily, I like all the girls I'm talking too and I also have inside scoop on the room I'm getting. Apparently it won't be some shitty kind of thing even though there's a lot of crowding in the freshmen class this year. Its a big room with its own bathroom and walk-in closet. Isn't that amazing? I'm looking forward to it!
As time moves on I'm getting more and more comfortable with this whole going to college thing. I just got a microwave and a mini-fridge from my grandparents for my graduation (along with some money). Its been fantastic. Things are starting to set in officially and in 47 days I'll be moving all my junk into my dormmm! :)
If I had any advice for younger kids, I guess it would be just to do what YOU want to do. Don't let people pressure you into doing anything you don't want to. Be your own person and don't tag along on someone's coattails. You'll have a much better experience if you pave your own path. It took me two years of annoyances and frustrations to get that through my head. But I've lived and learned, y'know? Another thing: you make mistakes. You aren't perfect. You have flaws because HUMANS have flaws. Just embrace that you will make some God-awful screw-ups while you grow up. Guess what? Time moves on, and so will you. In a few years it won't matter at all. Lastly: just try to live each moment without regretting anything. The more regrets you have at this age, the more you will be dissatisfied in the future. Accept whatever hand you've been dealt and make the best of it. A feeling of contentment at a young age can help you in the future.
Wow, I'm not even eighteen and I'm already giving advice on life. Hahaha that's a bit of a twist.
Current Mood: pensive
pensive24 June 2009 @ 09:13 pm
Aw man, I'm gonna be a graduate on Saturday. Do you know how exciting and/or scary that is? I'm not going to be in HS anymore! So, I don't have to deal with the principal's b.s., the crap from my class, any drama between my friends that we've had, and God knows what other crap that defines HS. Its going to be so rejuvenating just to get a fresh start somewhere else! I think that's the part I'm really looking forward to, you know?
So, this summer I have a few things to do.
1. Finish posting my fanfiction for all my lovely people's on Funfiction (I feel so bad!)
2. Do several creative writing exercises to explore chracterizing and plot developement
3. Take care of anything college-related so I am beyond ready for that first day
4. Brush up on all things bio and chem-related
5. Make sure to take care in keeping connections with friends!
6. Healthy, healthy, active!
Gosh, I'm really tired *yawns* but I'm going to see Transformers 2 tonight with a few people. Curiously enough, its with some friends ( 2 of whom are a couple, and the third is dating my other best friend but apparently I'm going and she isn't?) I really, really want to see this movie like super bad so I'm really excited hahaha. But did you know that walking out in the sun makes you realllllly tired? Honestly, it does. I have literally no energy. Haha. Ah well.
So, this summer I have a few things to do.
1. Finish posting my fanfiction for all my lovely people's on Funfiction (I feel so bad!)
2. Do several creative writing exercises to explore chracterizing and plot developement
3. Take care of anything college-related so I am beyond ready for that first day
4. Brush up on all things bio and chem-related
5. Make sure to take care in keeping connections with friends!
6. Healthy, healthy, active!
Gosh, I'm really tired *yawns* but I'm going to see Transformers 2 tonight with a few people. Curiously enough, its with some friends ( 2 of whom are a couple, and the third is dating my other best friend but apparently I'm going and she isn't?) I really, really want to see this movie like super bad so I'm really excited hahaha. But did you know that walking out in the sun makes you realllllly tired? Honestly, it does. I have literally no energy. Haha. Ah well.
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drained16 June 2009 @ 02:15 pm
Graduate? Almost. Give me about a week and five days and I'll officially be done with HS. Not that it isn't like I'm done now, because quite literally I have nothing these next weeks anyways. Its quite exciting :) I go on my Senior Day at Darien Lake Monday, then grad rehersal's next Thursday and the graduation's that Saturday! Its exciting, but at the same time its one of those bittersweet things. Its like, well, I'm so ready to leave where I've spent the last four years of my life, but at the same time its both frightening and saddening. I just can't get over the fact that I'll be leaving my best friends and going to some place completely new. I won't have a comfort zone, I won't know anybody and it'll be an entirely different atmosphere for me. I grew up in a place so cloistered from the world, and now its going to be entirely different! But even at the same time I'm ecstatic because it is a thrill. This new atmosphere will present a different challenge, and I'll be able to "start fresh". Thank God! I can't wait. I've been so excited for this since last year. Hahah.
Everything seems to be coming together well too. I've gotten a decent load of scholarships, I'm in the learning community and dorm hall I want to be in, Orientation is in a few weeks and I've finally settled out my major/minor combo. Now, I have days of absolutely nothing where I enjoy getting a whole shitload of stuff accomplished. I'm even doing a bunch of housework lol. Its great. I've also had time to continue a Dramione fanfiction I started awhile ago. Its kind of nice getting back into writing again. Its kind of nice not having to worry about a huge chunk of my day being taken out due to school! :)
Everything seems to be coming together well too. I've gotten a decent load of scholarships, I'm in the learning community and dorm hall I want to be in, Orientation is in a few weeks and I've finally settled out my major/minor combo. Now, I have days of absolutely nothing where I enjoy getting a whole shitload of stuff accomplished. I'm even doing a bunch of housework lol. Its great. I've also had time to continue a Dramione fanfiction I started awhile ago. Its kind of nice getting back into writing again. Its kind of nice not having to worry about a huge chunk of my day being taken out due to school! :)
Current Location: Hoooome
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chipper08 June 2009 @ 04:42 pm
I never thought in a million years that I'd end up where I am today: three days left of HS classes forever, I just had my last D-day forever. I have 19 days until I graduate. I don't have any exams. After Friday I have quite literally nothing going on until the Thursday before graduation. Its so surreal to think that this "phase" of my life is nearly over. Shocking as it is, and as sentimental as I feel about it, I can say that I still don't think that its set in. Its probably a good thing that I'm really content with everything I've done, or haven't done, in HS. I'm sitting at a really good point, without too much to worry about or any other thing. Its kind of refreshing in a way to know that I'm destined for bigger, better things.
The only thing that's pissing me off right now is the fact that the German exchange student is in our group of friends and it suddenly seems like she's doing everything with my friends and quite literally taking "my place", if you will. It just makes me mad. From one angle, I can see why one particular friend of mine is loving it: the German exchange student is following her like a puppy dog and she's never had that attention before. Grah! Its just aggravating the shit out of me because its like we have less than a week left and you choose to do this? Really?
I only have to keep it up until after my grad party though I guess, and by then the foreign exchange student won't even be here. I'm not even going to be here for her grad party/going-away party. I'll be in FL visiting my best friend! And I'm sure once the student leaves things'll probably be different -- we all want to hang out before college of course.
*sigh*
On another note, my to-do list for this week (and, conceivably the rest of my HS career)
- Get my yearbook signed by everyone I want to sign it
- Finish WalMart assignment for Economics
- Finish French project
- Go hiking with Taryn and Jesse
- Math League party at M.Ross' house (bake goodies!)
- Take care of final marking period stuff
Ok, I can do all of that. And write. And make sure to bring my camera on Moving Up Day. And here's a little thing I made:
The only thing that's pissing me off right now is the fact that the German exchange student is in our group of friends and it suddenly seems like she's doing everything with my friends and quite literally taking "my place", if you will. It just makes me mad. From one angle, I can see why one particular friend of mine is loving it: the German exchange student is following her like a puppy dog and she's never had that attention before. Grah! Its just aggravating the shit out of me because its like we have less than a week left and you choose to do this? Really?
I only have to keep it up until after my grad party though I guess, and by then the foreign exchange student won't even be here. I'm not even going to be here for her grad party/going-away party. I'll be in FL visiting my best friend! And I'm sure once the student leaves things'll probably be different -- we all want to hang out before college of course.
*sigh*
On another note, my to-do list for this week (and, conceivably the rest of my HS career)
- Get my yearbook signed by everyone I want to sign it
- Finish WalMart assignment for Economics
- Finish French project
- Go hiking with Taryn and Jesse
- Math League party at M.Ross' house (bake goodies!)
- Take care of final marking period stuff
Ok, I can do all of that. And write. And make sure to bring my camera on Moving Up Day. And here's a little thing I made:
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pissed off29 May 2009 @ 09:34 pm
Senior banquet <3 it was honestly one of the best nights of my life. So many memories and funny things were brought up, and I got my yearbook and I learned things about my class and it was just a great thing all around. Senior Red Wings Game was also love; I was so happy (except for my bright-as-a-tomato burn on my chest that showed up in my deep v-neck dress .... O.o). Yesterday was nearly picture perfect, with the exception of the feeling every now and then that I was being replaced. But then again I got to talk to someone I hadn't talked to in a long time, and I got to hang out with him. That was really nice.
So, I only have two weeks of classes left. Isn't that scary? (well for me, I'm sure you don't care haha) Its just so weird thinking that HS is pretty much over. I mean, I graduate in all of a month. Ah! I can't wait though. Its gonna be the coolest thing in the world, I'm almost positive. I feel content with everything I've left behind and/or done in HS. I honestly feel like its been a worthwhile trip. I've learned a lot (outside of all that "necessary" stuff) and I've grown a lot as an individual from the time I was fourteen until now. People change a lot in HS, sometimes they evolve for the better or for the worse. I think that for the most part people remain the same at their core, but they have different layers that grow or change at different times. There is no changing if you truly are a "rotten", for lack of a better term, person. You will remain "rotten" at the core because of how you started out. Do I believe in second chances? Sure, but on conditions. Do I believe people can truly notice the error of their ways and change? I used to be naive and say yes, absolutely, but quite honestly I'm pretty sure they don't. Notice how many time people make mistakes and say they aren't going to do it again ... but wait, they do almost literally THE NEXT DAY. But you're probably thinking, how trivial, its just a mistake. Well, yeah, but think of what that does over time. It grows into a habit. People NEVER LEARN. Why do you think we get into wars all the time? (and I'm going to stop there with the political crap because this isn't about politics *shudders*) Evolution is what occurs. We grow, learn how to avoid things, become like animals and the strongest survive ;) haha ohh bio. Nah, but if you really think about it that's kind of the case. You learn, you live, you evolve. *shrugs* Just the way of human nature and life.
I made something :) hehe. Its a little rough around the edges, but oh well...
So, I only have two weeks of classes left. Isn't that scary? (well for me, I'm sure you don't care haha) Its just so weird thinking that HS is pretty much over. I mean, I graduate in all of a month. Ah! I can't wait though. Its gonna be the coolest thing in the world, I'm almost positive. I feel content with everything I've left behind and/or done in HS. I honestly feel like its been a worthwhile trip. I've learned a lot (outside of all that "necessary" stuff) and I've grown a lot as an individual from the time I was fourteen until now. People change a lot in HS, sometimes they evolve for the better or for the worse. I think that for the most part people remain the same at their core, but they have different layers that grow or change at different times. There is no changing if you truly are a "rotten", for lack of a better term, person. You will remain "rotten" at the core because of how you started out. Do I believe in second chances? Sure, but on conditions. Do I believe people can truly notice the error of their ways and change? I used to be naive and say yes, absolutely, but quite honestly I'm pretty sure they don't. Notice how many time people make mistakes and say they aren't going to do it again ... but wait, they do almost literally THE NEXT DAY. But you're probably thinking, how trivial, its just a mistake. Well, yeah, but think of what that does over time. It grows into a habit. People NEVER LEARN. Why do you think we get into wars all the time? (and I'm going to stop there with the political crap because this isn't about politics *shudders*) Evolution is what occurs. We grow, learn how to avoid things, become like animals and the strongest survive ;) haha ohh bio. Nah, but if you really think about it that's kind of the case. You learn, you live, you evolve. *shrugs* Just the way of human nature and life.
I made something :) hehe. Its a little rough around the edges, but oh well...
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mellow
mellow21 May 2009 @ 07:54 pm
Biology major, creative writing minor. I've decided after having some influence from the professors at LMC. I guess for a career in forensics its better to take a science-heavy course. I'm absolutely fine with it because I pwned at AP Bio this year. I just don't want to take Calc. Luckily, I think I can get out of that and replace it with like a Stats course or something. I'm so excited! =D I loved the college, and I can't wait to officially live there and be on my own - like, I'm going to be independent, a word and action I have been craving since I was little.
Lol, its so funny because I love staying home alone and I completely love when I'm home by myself on weekends. I don't even party, so don't get your hopes up about wicked party scenes. Its just so comforting and relaxing to be home by myself every once in awhile. Peace and quiet. I never get lonely. I'm a very contained person actually; I never rely on people for things. I do everything for myself and could survive on my own. I don't absolutely need human interaction to survive. But, I know what you're thinking: "She's going to do poorly in college because she can't stand being with people". Not true. I'm a very sociable person as long as I "warm-up" to people first. Quite honestly, once you get to know me I never shut up. And then, some of the most inappropriate things come out of my mouth. O:)
College is going to be such a different experience from HS and I totally can't wait. I'm excited to meet new people and get out of my little bubble of a town and school. We're too safe, too naive and too protected here in this little community. It aggravates me to no end. Hahah. I'm really craving adventure, independence and a little marring of the "good-girl reputation" that I've had for all seventeen years of my life. ;) Yay for LMC Fall '09. Already I'm getting excited about being the class of 2013 - and I haven't even graduated with my class of 2009 yet. Hahah. Ah well, it never hurts to be excited does it?
Lol, its so funny because I love staying home alone and I completely love when I'm home by myself on weekends. I don't even party, so don't get your hopes up about wicked party scenes. Its just so comforting and relaxing to be home by myself every once in awhile. Peace and quiet. I never get lonely. I'm a very contained person actually; I never rely on people for things. I do everything for myself and could survive on my own. I don't absolutely need human interaction to survive. But, I know what you're thinking: "She's going to do poorly in college because she can't stand being with people". Not true. I'm a very sociable person as long as I "warm-up" to people first. Quite honestly, once you get to know me I never shut up. And then, some of the most inappropriate things come out of my mouth. O:)
College is going to be such a different experience from HS and I totally can't wait. I'm excited to meet new people and get out of my little bubble of a town and school. We're too safe, too naive and too protected here in this little community. It aggravates me to no end. Hahah. I'm really craving adventure, independence and a little marring of the "good-girl reputation" that I've had for all seventeen years of my life. ;) Yay for LMC Fall '09. Already I'm getting excited about being the class of 2013 - and I haven't even graduated with my class of 2009 yet. Hahah. Ah well, it never hurts to be excited does it?
Current Mood: 
exhausted
exhausted11 May 2009 @ 01:29 pm
Until I graduate :) I'm so happy! We just had our AP Bio exam today - which really wasn't too bad - and so I'm pretty much done with English and Bio. Sure, I've got Pre-Calc, Economics and French, but Eco. is easy, French we do nothing and Pre-Calc is shit anyways. Yay! So I've got a ton of field trips and senior activities coming up which I am thrilled for! I've got a Bio field trip to the zoo, the baseball game, the crepe restaurant and Darien Lake trip. Its so exciting! Its kinda weird thinking I only have 47 days left of HS. Yesterday I got my orientation packet for LMC and I'm all like :O omg! Its starting to hit home now, but I'm really excited for college!
Any advice you college kids can give me? Hahaha.
xox
Any advice you college kids can give me? Hahaha.
xox
Current Mood: jubilant
jubilant30 April 2009 @ 07:05 pm
+ I will be a freshman at Le Moyne College for 2009 - 2010
+ I will graduate HS with a 95 - or better - overall GPA
+ I will get a 4 or 5 on my AP Exams and then use it toward college classes
+ I will remain sober through college
+ I will get a criminology w/forensics science concentration degree
+ I will be an honors student at LMC
+ I will find a way to pay for college
+ I will work my ass off this summer and get money
+ I will get a boyfriend at some point
+ I will achieve my goal distance of 24 ft. for triple jump
+ I will do amazing on Monday/Wednesday in the 200m
+ I will continue to write through the summer and throughout my life
- I am a writer
- I am an honor student
- I am so excited for graduation
- I am going to look gorgeous at prom
- I am going to go far in life
- I am stressed >.<
- I am exhausted
- I am puzzled
~ I was something I am not any more :)
So yes, I am going to be a LMC student next year! My decision has been made and I am SO EXCITED to graduate and leave HS behind. I'm so sick and tired of the principal being a bitch, the teachers being retarded, the classes, the work, the GAYNESS. HS is too dry for me now a days; I need something exciting. I'm yearning for an independent lifestyle and a fresh start - I really am. You know its time for college when you can't take your mother's excessive hovering, the idiocy of being a high schooler and the small-ass hickville town you life in. I can not wait to leave. But even though I'm like "Yes! I'm leaving!" I still get really reflective over the fact that these are my last 57 days of high school ever. I'm freaking thrilled, but at the same time I'm like o.m.g. this is really it. Its like, if you haven't done something in HS that you've always wanted to do, you're S.O.L. You know? I'm content with my HS life and what I've done or haven't done though. I feel like I stand at a pretty good stage no matter what. I don't have any regrets about not doing things in HS or anything like that. I'm just really happy to leave. And you know what? I think a lot of us actually are.
xox
+ I will graduate HS with a 95 - or better - overall GPA
+ I will get a 4 or 5 on my AP Exams and then use it toward college classes
+ I will remain sober through college
+ I will get a criminology w/forensics science concentration degree
+ I will be an honors student at LMC
+ I will find a way to pay for college
+ I will work my ass off this summer and get money
+ I will get a boyfriend at some point
+ I will achieve my goal distance of 24 ft. for triple jump
+ I will do amazing on Monday/Wednesday in the 200m
+ I will continue to write through the summer and throughout my life
- I am a writer
- I am an honor student
- I am so excited for graduation
- I am going to look gorgeous at prom
- I am going to go far in life
- I am stressed >.<
- I am exhausted
- I am puzzled
~ I was something I am not any more :)
So yes, I am going to be a LMC student next year! My decision has been made and I am SO EXCITED to graduate and leave HS behind. I'm so sick and tired of the principal being a bitch, the teachers being retarded, the classes, the work, the GAYNESS. HS is too dry for me now a days; I need something exciting. I'm yearning for an independent lifestyle and a fresh start - I really am. You know its time for college when you can't take your mother's excessive hovering, the idiocy of being a high schooler and the small-ass hickville town you life in. I can not wait to leave. But even though I'm like "Yes! I'm leaving!" I still get really reflective over the fact that these are my last 57 days of high school ever. I'm freaking thrilled, but at the same time I'm like o.m.g. this is really it. Its like, if you haven't done something in HS that you've always wanted to do, you're S.O.L. You know? I'm content with my HS life and what I've done or haven't done though. I feel like I stand at a pretty good stage no matter what. I don't have any regrets about not doing things in HS or anything like that. I'm just really happy to leave. And you know what? I think a lot of us actually are.
xox
Current Mood: 
accomplished
accomplished